Thinking of Kay

A few years ago, my friend and mentor, Kay, died unexpectedly. I won't go into the details surrounding her death, but I'll confess that the months following her death were some of the worst months of my life. I fell into a time of deep depression and intense questioning...and I made some really stupid decisions that profoundly altared the course of my life.

I think about Kay every day--some days more than others. And today is a day of more...primarily because this song just shuffled through my playlist...

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=kLRSW4QqMJA

I never dreamed of this sorrow,
I never thought I'd have reason to lament,
I hoped I'd never know heartbreak,
How I wish I could change the way things went!
I wanted nothing but goodness,
I wanted reason to prevail,
Not this bare emptyness.
I wanted Days of Plenty.

But I refused to feel tragic,
I am aching for more than pain and grief.
There has got to be meaning,
Most of all when a life has been so brief.
I have got to learn something,
How can I give her any less?
I want life to go on.
I want Days of Plenty

You have to Believe,
There is reason for Hope.
You have to Believe
That the answers will come.
You can't let this defeat you.
I won't less this defeat you.
You must fight to keep her there,
Within you!

So Believe that she matters!
And Believe that she always will!
She will always be with you!
She'll be part of the days you've yet to feel!
She will live in your bounty!
She will live as you carry on your life!

So carry on,
Full of Hope,
She'll be there,

For all your Days of Plenty