Where My Demons Hide

 

Today’s Throwback Thursday takes us to  4.14.16. Over a decade later, I still think about “The Passion” and listen to songs from the soundtrack.

 

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A few weeks ago, on Palm Sunday, a live performance of “The Passion” was aired on Fox. Before watching, I didn’t know exactly what the production entailed—just that it was a modern version of the last week of Jesus’ life, that it was set in New Orleans, and that it was rumored to be quite powerful.

 

I confess: When the special first began I wasn’t overly impressed. I thought that the next two hours were simply going to be filled with songs and narration like a modern music awards show—but I was wrong. It was similar. Yet it was so much more. It was focused and centered around a life-changing theme. And it presented Christ’s message of love, grace, and hope in a powerful way.

 

I ordered the soundtrack.

 

The first time I listen to it, I found myself sobbing. I’m not talking about leaking a few tears, I’m talking about full blown “ugly-crying.” Out of the blue, I felt like my heart was going to explode in gratitude for Christ’s unwavering love and grace.

 

The song that caused this catharsis was “Demons” by Imagine Dragons. The characters were Judas and Jesus. The emotions were defeat and anguish. Judas was defeated by his own humanity and in anguish over his inability to escape his demons. Jesus was defeated by misunderstanding and betrayal and in anguish over his friends’ inability to accept unconditional love. 

 

On some days, I am Judas. On others, I am closer to Jesus. I get it. The core of me gets it. Maybe you get it, too? 

 

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=b8oe4KHMUVE

 "Demons" as sung in The Passion

Judas: When the days are cold
And the cards all fold
And the saints we see
Are all made of gold
When your dreams all fail
And the ones we hail
Are the worst of all
And the blood’s run stale
I wanna hide the truth

Jesus: I wanna shelter you

Judas: But with the beast inside

Judas and Jesus: There’s nowhere we can hide

Judas: No matter what we breed
We still are made of greed

Jesus: This is my kingdom come
This is my kingdom come

Judas: When you feel my heat
Look into my eyes
It’s where my demons hide
It’s where my demons hide
Don’t get too close
It’s dark inside
It’s where my demons hide

Jesus: It’s where your demons hide

Judas: At the curtain’s call
It's the last of all
When the lights fade out
All the sinners crawl

Jesus: So they dug your grave
And the masquerade
Will come calling out
At the mess you made
Don't wanna let you down

Judas: But I am hell bound

Jesus: Though this is all for you

Jesus and Judas: Don't wanna hide the truth

Judas: No matter what we breed
We still are made of greed

Jesus: This is my kingdom come

Judas: This is my kingdom come
When you feel my heat
Look into my eyes
It’s where my demons hide
It’s where my demons hide
Don’t get too close
It’s dark inside
It’s where my demons hide

Jesus: It’s where your demons hide

Judas: They say it's what you make
I say it's up to fate
It's woven in my soul
I need to let you go

Jesus: Your eyes, they shine so bright
I wanna save that light
I can't escape this now
Unless you show me how

Judas: When you feel my heat
Look into my eyes
It’s where my demons hide
It’s where my demons hide
Don’t get too close
It’s dark inside
It’s where my demons hide
It’s where my demons hide